Well, the anniversary came and went. I couldn’t remember the exact date of it until just now, when I dug up the first book I was using to write some of these experiences down. I don’t care so much about “the anniversary” -ish-ness of it, but I like to know the dates for some reason – it helps me relate to my past self I guess.
I had planned to, and did go on another trip on roughly the 1 year anniversary of the Transcendence. It wasn’t quite as full blown, but was significant in its own right.
Aug 2, 2021
The first one was when core Self was first identified and a new internal “observation point” took root as the origin from where I manifest my self awareness. I became we, and became self-aware of my own mental functions and a psychic model that I later learned mimicked the Jungian model. This one also had a …reasonably traumatic? encounter with … I’m not sure. It was like, “by the way, theres an entire dimension here you are generally oblivious to, and here’s what’s it’s all about” – then the information overload happened, which kinda hurt actually. I refer to it as the mind rape. But at the end of it I felt like Desmond at the end of Assassin’s Creed 2. I was genuinely like, “What. the. fuck?”
Feb 23, 2022
And now Feb 26, 2023
It’s something else to explain an experience that is completely confined to the mind. A dream. An idea. Especially one that defies words. It’s easy to see where stories of divinity originate, when looking through this particular lens. I’m likely to continue with the divine metaphors because frankly they work. But you know, so does The Force. So I’ll switch it up from time to time.
I’ve journaled the past few trips in an attempt to relate the subjective experience of the trip into relatable terms for the purposes of continued study of the Self. There appear to be many commonalities at play both among trippers and among repeated trips by the same visitor which intrigue me. This is why documenting it is important. So you can recognize it when you get back there and start taking note of additional details about the experience you might have not picked up on the last time. You build on your experiences.
And so you can share them and relate to each other’s subjective selves. I have become aware of a documentation project – I’ll share more about it when I have a chance to look at it closer. I think projects like this are critical to furthering our understanding of the nature of psychedelics, and of the mind. There are massive potential benefits to mental health and advancements in neuroscience and psychology waiting to be discovered.
